Try Other Things Before You Try Killing Yourself

And other useful advice from rm:

http://rm.livejournal.com/1933522.html?view=22593746#t22593746

For the longest time I thought I wasn't wired for suicide, and that this was all that had saved my life on several occasions. Then I really did feel suicidal.

Bupropion helped*. So did reminding myself to mutter "I want to live" under my breath, instead of "I wish I were dead".

* The first antidepressant I tried didn't help, but I found that it's like reporting sexual abuse: if you don't get help from the first person/drug, keep trying until you do.